Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Scorn Lovers

Why is that people when they lose love also lose their minds. I know I was one of them. Egging cars and calling at midnight drunk. If this thing we call love is so made up then why does it hurt when it is gone. I was thinking about Mr. Anonymous and at first I was getting pissed off. Sorry Ty for using your comments as a posting ground to throw down the gauntlet. But now with a little time for reflection I find that I pity him. He is hurt because he thinks there is some obvious flaw in him that everyone else but him sees. Now I don't personally know Mr. A but I know how he feels. It is always hard when someone you cared for moves on. That is until you move on then quite frankly you could care less. Ironically as time passes you remember why you liked that person but the reasons for the break up become foggy. You might remember who dumped who but not why the break up occurred. I know for myself there is only one ex that I am civil with. He was my first boyfriend and second kiss. He burned me pretty bad, but I got and apology and a lot of cool shit out of him. When he or any boyfriend asked for their shit back I always refused. A gift is a gift. Besides is it truly my fault that I had an exit plan and you didn't. Why should I be punished for packing my parachute while your ass was to lazy to do it. That is one plus side of every break up I have ever been apart of. The stuff you walk away with. Hell, it doesn't even have to be my break up for me to make out like a bandit. Right Clem? I was always smart about that. Not lavishing my fling with anything I wasn't willing to throw away. I never lost anything in a break up, but I have gained jewelry, jackets, hats, car keys. Men would just give me shit trying to seduce my pants off, then when things went south I walked away like I had won the lottery. Of course there was tears and pain, but when the dust settled I always felt like I had won the break up. But let me get back to Mr. A. I apologize for not being sympathetic to your pain. Maybe you had no cd to comfort you. I am sure that we are both smart from text books. But as an old soul let me give you one piece of advise. Move on. Reading Ty's blog only pains you and forces you to lash out on undeserving people. I can clearly see that you love nerve is still raw so stop aggravating it. Learn from that relationship and next time at least get collateral before dating anyone. I am telling you it always helps mend the wounds faster when you pawn their Dad's ring and buy all your friends dinner. Not that I did that... or did I?

1 Comments:

At 8:25 AM , Blogger Ty said...

Believe me, he has plenty of collateral from our relationship. I give good gifts when I can, in fact I am usually too generous, and he was no exception. Not that he needs it, his family is loaded.
However, stuff is just stuff, it doesn't mean much to me ultimately, except for the sentimental value. And you are right to acknowledge that he is hurting, and I know he is, and that's why I forgive him for any nasty thing he might say. I cannot stand being the source of anyone's pain, and I blame myself. Thanks for being my pitt bull, I love you for it, but don't be too harsh on him.

 

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